Had a chance to talk to some kids of K1 about death this morning.
Well, most of them don't quite understand the irreversibility of death. And to them it's like... when you find the cure, though maybe difficult, the dead will come alive again. (Funny that they think injection is the key to resurrection) So death doesn't seem to be a depressing issue to these little kids.
It just came to my mind that, naive as they are, at least their concept of "things will be alright again finally" is a kind of true wisdom. A hope, a faith... that we are all pursuing, in one way or the other.
And today, I'm reminded, once again, we were actually given this, at a very early stage of life.
Where is it now?
很久沒有這樣子了。
一個人，背著背囊，到沒有人認識的地方去。
到處跑，到處坐，到處拍照，到處對陌生人微笑，不用顧慮甚麼形象。
從我拍的照片，我想看看，我有沒有改變過、還存在不存在......
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=51324&id=784298979&ref=mf
帶著淡淡的哀愁、冒著雨、睜開雙眼，
就這樣，一步一步地放下一些，又一步一步重拾一些。
走了大半天，找了一張椅，面對著大海的，脫下鞋子，抱著酸軟的腿，閱讀了我的bible study guide 內的一段有關智慧的commentary。
'...the apostle Paul paints a vivid portrait of the person who is spiritually wise. Such a person glories in the Lord ( 1 Corinthians 1:31), is meek and humble (2:3), relies on the power of God (4:20), is submitted to spiritual leadership (14:37, 16:16), acknowledges God as the source of everything (6:19-20), serves others and seeks the well-being of others (8:1, 10:20), stands up under temptation (10:13), maintains self-control and discipline (6:12, 9:27), has enduring power (3:10-14).'
'... the person who functions according to "worldly wisdom" is a person who boasts in men (1 Corinthians 3:21), is arrogant or "puffed up" (4:6), relies on self and the power of words (4:20), criticizes leadership (4:8), takes pride in personal accomplishments (4:7), insists on personal rights and is insensitive to others - often woundin others (8:9, 11-12), is subject to "falling" into temptation and sin (10:12), and often does not endure in the faith (3:15).'
你應該看看我讀完後的臉有多紅呢!
那完全是我! 構成今天的種種問題的原因!
過去一段日子以來，我迷失太過份了。由自以為是，到受挫
很累的旅程，但很滿足。
親愛的，很想讓你知道，我今天很快樂。
因為更懂得愛你而快樂。
A very pleasant dinner tonight.
Thank you Dan and Arthur, two of the best guys I know in this world. ^^
Between improving myself and trying to please you...
Between allowing peronal space and maintaining intimacy...
Between being true about my feeling and considerate of yours...
Between learning from the past and being optimistic...
Where do we draw the line?
It should be simple. It SHOULD be.
Why the complication?
My fault of self-indulgence.
Being spoiled and I lost my greatest quality to be tough and resilient AND be a listener.
If only I remembered, it should have been much easier. And I ruined it.
I'm very sorry dear. How can I make it up now?
I know it's time to go back and be the old me again.
The me who would be able to pull you from all these stinky wreckages that I produced.
If only I had the time and the chance, just one chance.
